Checking in on life

Two years ago I wrote a list to help me explain to my doctor what I was feeling. 

Here is that list. 

Sadness

Anger, then turns to sadness

Fear and anxiety

No feelings ether way

Eating just out of necessity 

Highs are not very high

Lows are more common and last for a long time

Crying spells 

Hopeless

Life seems worthless

The smallest thing turns my high day to a low day

No energy

Forget everything

I'm a chameleon and I go with what ever someone says. 

When someone else is laughing, I can't eve imagine what it feels like anymore. 

I was diagnosed with severe depression and Post Traumatic Stress symptoms shortly after this. 

I went into intense therapy and my doctor started me onto a low dose medication.    

I reread this to remind myself what it was like, that I have come a long ways and that I need to maintain what I and so many other people have build and helped build. 

I am allowed to cry, I am allowed to laugh, I am allowed to express all the emotions that I am feeling. 

I am even allowed to sing and dance simply because I feel like it! 

If this is what it feels like to be a person, I want to help others to figure out how to feel this way.